heartbroken

[Tygrkat]

{{HUGS}}

[irish]

I do know, you will find the strength to meet this challenge every day. Some where deep inside, you know when the time has come to let go. You will look at your husband's face, to see peace, comfort and see the freedom from pain. {Some call this time, 'perfect healing'.} You will feel peace and comfort within yourself. I have been through what you are facing and it is truly amazing what we begin to feel, through this time of 'perfect healing'.
I will be thinking of you both and will keep you in my prayers.
Bless you.....
irish

[Lady Amy of York]

Lady Glorianna,  my heart  goes out  to you and  Ron.    I  came across a copy  of a poem  that was  given  to  my aunt  when she  lost  her husband  .  I thought  I  would  share it  with  you. Hugs  and  love  to you both .


"The Plan of the Master Weaver"

My life is but a weaving

Between the Lord and me,

I may not choose the colors,

He knows what they should be;

For He can view the pattern

Upon the upper side

While I can see it only

On this, the under side.

Sometimes He weaveth sorrow,

Which seemeth strange to me;

But I will trust His judgment,

And work on faithfully;

'Tis He who fills the shuttle,

And He knows what is best,

So I shall weave in earnest,

Leaving to Him the rest.

Not till the loom is silent

And the shuttles cease to fly

Shall God unroll the canvas

And explain the reason why--

The Dark threads are as needed

In the Weaver's skillful hand

As the threads of gold and silver

In the pattern He has planned.

[lordwriothsley]

Beautifully spoken Amy.Well done.

[Dallan]

Lady Glorianna –

I received word at faire yesterday. I'm sorry for your loss and for the loss to MDRF. Our prayers are with you.

[Lady_Glorianna]

I decided to post here as this is more to how I am feeling. My heart is gone. I just go on day by day, one day at a time. To complicate matters, my back situation has taken a turn. Dept of Labor had decided not to approve the new surgery, they are saying that my problem is degenerative and not from my injury and are asking that a) I get other therapies b)for my doctor to justify his reasoning better. Of course this all gets clarified to me yesterday. I had to try and get an appointment with the doctor to try and tackle the situation and after fighting with the secretary (she couldn't understand why i needed to actually see the doctor) I finally got it for the 20th of this month. Time is not on my side as my other option is to go through my insurance and hope that after I fight some more, i get re-mbursed. Little detail here is that because of Ron, until the 31st of this year I have no out of pocket medical expenses since we met the catastrophic cap. If there was ever a time I missed not having Ron by my side or having him hold him, I tell you it is now...

[Lady Amy of York]

Oh Glorianna, hang in there hon !  There has  to be  sunny  days  ahead for  you.  Don't you just love  doctors    with everything you have  been thru  you have  every  right  to tell a  few  of  them where they can  go, if  you  know   what I mean !   Hang in there  girlfriend, and  know  that  you have  family and  friends  on here that are here  for  you if  you need  us.    Hugs  and  love !

[Lady_Glorianna]

I miss him sooo much! So far its like I have to drag myself to work mainly because I can hear him saying it it better to go in and leave when you feel bad than to call in all the time. End of the week is especially hard. So far Saturdays and more to the point at 6pm (now 5 because of dst) I get enveloped by extreme sadness and begin to cry...

[Ferret]

It takes time. Keep busy. Change routines. Maybe find something to do on the weekends so you look forward to them.

Lots of people caring about you. Lots of positive prayers and hopes surround you.
Ferret

[lordwriothsley]

Hugs to you Gloriana.You are in my thoughts and prayers during this most difficult time.

[mollymishap]

My continued thoughts and prayers are with you, Glorianna.  Just keep talking to us; we're here to listen, lend a shoulder to cry on, pass you the Kleenex, whatever you need.  <<BIG HUG>>

[Anna Iram]

Lady Glorianna, perhaps you could schedule a class of some sort for Saturdays. Something you've wanted to do, like learning a new language or pottery or music? Something that wil bring new people in and new experiences.

Perhaps also there is a support group you could visit with on the weekends or in the evenings after work.

I know it's hard to get out of a depression after the loss of someone so close, but make yourself attend to a new interest. It will help.

[Master James]

Rember that no matter how dark it seems to be, the dawn always comes.  I know that's hard to believe right now but its true.  We are here for you no matter the issue.  Something I find that helps when times get hard is to know that god never gives us more than he feels we can handle.  I just wish sometimes he didn't trust us so much!     If you need anything, just ask.

[Blow'n M'Crack]

I've read through some of the posts because I have not been on the board for quite a while.  My prayers are with you and I am glad that I got to see Ron when he was at MDRF, he has a great spirit that will live on for a long time. 

I agree with another post about finding a support group.  Hospice generally has a group for the grieving and you will find that you are not alone and right now, I'm sure you're feeling that no one can understand what you're going through.  Try it and I'm not going to say the pain or the grief will ever go away, but it will become more managable over time. 

Peace to your heart.

[Lady_Glorianna]

Today is hard as it has been a month since he passed. 
I'm looking into the support groups thing.