I probably know some of you, most of you I don't. I have had the worst year so far. Right after GLMF pirate weekend last year, I caught bronchitis which developed into pneumonia and I was sick from the end of July til October. In January I again caught pneumonia because apparently it never really went away. I have been having problems with my blood pressure since last summer, and put on 70 lbs for no good reason (the doctors are still trying to decide why, more testing needed) then, in February I lost my job (still can't find another one, still looking) On April 28th I got the worst call of my life. I awoke in the morning to a voicemail from my brother. My mom died of a massive seizure/stroke unexpectedly, she was only 58 yrs old. I had been reeling from that blow since then, and then just when I started to feel better after her funeral, I was diagnosed with stage 2 hypertension/high blood pressure. I had to miss GLMF this year. The doctors put me on medicine for it, but it had done no good. I went back to the doctor's last Thursday 8/6/09 and saw the heart specialist, because I've been having chest pain and my bp was 182/115, and my blood lipids were abnormal. The heart specialist has since informed me that I have coronary artery disease (hereditary) and fibromuscular dysplasia of the arteries that lead to my brain (which explains all the severe headaches and neck pain I've had for the past few years) I am now on 8 different medications that total $513 for a month! He has also informed me that I may need surgery on the arteries of my heart and the ones leading to my brain. I am so scared. I'm only 36 years old, and I am scared I'm going to die. If all of that wasn't enough, at 5pm today I open up the local paper to see that my good friend Scott A. "Hoss" Griffith had passed away at age 49 while at the Pittsburgh Festival. My nerves cannot take another blow. I am seriously depressed. I went to his viewing tonight. I don't want to remember him that way. I regret not calling him last week like I was going to, now he's gone. I just need some positive healing thoughts, and I don't really have anyone to turn to. So, if you could find it in your hearts to send me some, I really could used them. thanks.
Alicia
Sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. She was young. Do not carry fear and regret in your heart it could affect your health even more. Do what the doctors tell you. We want you to get better. Sending you positive healing thoughts.
You are in heart and prayers.
Always remember you have us to turn to. When you need to talk, we're here to talk. We're family.
Lots of gentle hugs
Sending thoughts of healing, strength and peace...may you receive all you need and more
*hugs*
Sweetie don't ever feel like you have no one to turn to because really and truly you do. You have all of us on here who are here for you when you need us whether it be to talk, or if you just need a listening ear we are here for you cause just like was said before we are all family.
Hugs, love, and good thoughts are being sent your way lass.
Alica,
sweetheart, i can relate somewhat to what you are going thru. I have been dealing with my own health crisis for the last five years, and along the way have had to deal with other family crisises with family and realtives.
( so sorry to hear about your mom . ).
Anyway, i guess what i am getting at, is that i would have never have made it this far if it had not been for prayer, the love and support of my family, and the love and support of all my ren friends and family here on the forum. Life is not always easy, but with prayer and friends we can get thru the worst of times.
If you feel you ever need to talk, know that we are here for you.
Hugs and prayers go out to you. .
Alicia,
I will put you on my prayer list for comfort for your hurting soul, and strenght to get thru it all. Stress will do really bad thing to you, so do please try to meditate and relax and trust that things will get better. We are here for you.
RenRobin