heartbroken

[Welsh Wench]

Lady Glorianna, my heart goes out to you.
How fortunate that you have so many people to strengthen you.
Please draw on that strength and don't forget to take care of yourself.

[Lady de la Warr]

Oh Milady - words cannot express the sadness and concern I feel for you and Ron. It has all been said and, while I feel the same, there is no way I could improve on any of the sentiments expressed already - so I won't even try.

Please just know I am here for you when/if you need me. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.

[ADraeger]

  Lady Glorianna, my heart goes out to you and your Ron.  Ever since I discovered your post, you two have been in my thoughts and prayers.  May God bless you.

[Fairyfly]

I wish I was there to give you a hug hun! I know how much you are hurting, and I wish I could help ease your pain. Please just know that you both are very loved and have so many here that are here for you as much as we can be. *HUG*

[SarviaRose]

BIG HUGS I have no words to say that can take the pain away just remember we are thinking about you.

[Lady Renee Buchanan]

I am so sorry to hear this news.  You and Ron have been in my thoughts and prayers (though I hadn't posted before), and will continue to be so.  Even though we are far away, your forum family is here to help in whatever way we can.

Hugs.
Renee

[Lady_Glorianna]

I decided to write now while I still have somewhat of a clear head. The doctor was here this afternoon and he said that though he may be wrong, it would not surprise him if Ron passes in a week or two. Ron is in a fog and his kidneys are shutting down. He spends most of the time sleeping or mentally off somewhere. He has moments where he might recognize and acknowledge who is talking to him but these are becoming less frequent. As the moment draws near, he might be a little bit more alert but only time will tell...

I was looking through some notebooks and found the following note he had jotted down a while a go at a time when ever the engineer we were getting and preparing certain things for when this time came:

"I can't go on fighting this cancer. It is killing me and it has won. We all must eventually die. This is my time. Do not cry for me. I have accepted the inevitable. I only cry for those who I leave behind specially my beautiful Gloria. All who wish to donate money at the time of my death can do so to my wife Gloria Morales to assist her in paying off our financial debt or they may donate to the Animal Rescue Fund or ASPCA"---Ron Santos

I have limited internet connection here at the hospice so feel free to share with anyone I might have missed. As per his wishes, there shall be no viewing and/or funeral. There might be a mass and when I have figured that out I shall let you know. Also as per his wishes, should you wish to organize a memorial, you are free to do so.

[Anna Iram]

Oh my gosh Glorianna I am so sad for you tonight. Like Renee  said, you and your husband have been in my thoughts as I pass through our forum.  I'll say a special prayer for you tonight that you find the strength you need and that your husband pass as peacefully as possible.

[Ferret]

You remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Ferret

[Scotsman]

My dear lass ... words cannot express my sadness ... and joy at the thoughts of Ron. All I can say is that I thank God for introducing me to you and Ron. The time spent among you two has been priceless and seeing him a week ago was like a breath of fresh air. He has touched many and all are blessed that he is in our lives. Please pass along to Ron that we stand tall with him and continue to honor him in our thoughts.

[will paisley]

I decided to write now while I still have somewhat of a clear head. The doctor was here this afternoon and he said that though he may be wrong, it would not surprise him if Ron passes in a week or two. Ron is in a fog and his kidneys are shutting down. He spends most of the time sleeping or mentally off somewhere. He has moments where he might recognize and acknowledge who is talking to him but these are becoming less frequent. As the moment draws near, he might be a little bit more alert but only time will tell...

I am writing this only because it came to me in a flash.  I'm hoping that my gut instincts are the right ones.

One of two things will happen - he'll either get better for a while, or he won't.  Not to foster false hope, but he's defied the odds so far. I remember talking to you two around this time last year, and you weren't even comfortable making plans for the upcoming February.  It's not impossible that you may have more time than you think.

If he doesn't, then this is the time you've known would come (not that that makes it much easier).  Neither you nor he would want him to stay in the state you've described here.  I remember my dad lying in intensive care after his stroke, hardly awake, feeding and IV tubes running into him, barely able to make a fist or curl his toes when the nurse would yell commands to him for a minute or two.  My sister and I wrestled with how to fulfill his last wishes, which were to die like a human being and not hang on to an unconscious existence plugged into a machine.  Our mother left it up to us, too overcome with grief to even listen to our discussions.  In a way, managing his care was a distraction from the reality of what he was going through. 

You know how he feels about all this, what he's worried about and what he's not.  Aside from that, and keeping him out of as much pain as possible, all that's left is the emotional impact; the feelings you have that defy any logical rebuttal or rational condolences. All you can do for those is to feel them. If we can help in any way - by being there, by not being there, by being close by but not within earshot, by talking about it, by not talking about it, by talking about our own problems as a distraction, by talking about the weather, by doing an interpretive dance about the nature of bagpipe music - we'll do all and whatever we can. As someone said on another board, about another's similar situation, "Thanks for letting us mourn a little with you. That's what families do."

[Lady Nicolette]

Prayers are still going out for you and Ron from the wRenHouse.  You're often in my thoughts as you go through this very difficult time.  As you find that you need strength and courage there are many of us here who are ready to help you. 

[lordwriothsley]

Glorianna although I do not know you in person I am sitting here right now trying to not to cry.I am deeply saddened by this and it litterally gave me chills just reading it.Words can't express what you are feeling right now but I will say this,When Ron's time comes another soldier will be coming home.For he is now sheltered in the arms of God.I will say a prayer for you my dear and always know that you have you friends on here as well as your family lean on if you ever need us.

[Tudor-Diva]

Every though we have never met or spoken, indeed my deepest heartfelt condolences go out to you.   This has been a very sad year with the loss of so many friends in our family community, performers, actors and enthusiasts alike.

Prayers that you find the grace and strength to carry yourself though the difficulty and put on a brave face for your husband and be a comfort to him in his last days.  And prayers for your own comfort.  God be with you.

Stacy Bakri
Texas Renaissance Festival

[Rani Zemirah]

I decided to write now while I still have somewhat of a clear head. The doctor was here this afternoon and he said that though he may be wrong, it would not surprise him if Ron passes in a week or two. Ron is in a fog and his kidneys are shutting down. He spends most of the time sleeping or mentally off somewhere. He has moments where he might recognize and acknowledge who is talking to him but these are becoming less frequent. As the moment draws near, he might be a little bit more alert but only time will tell...

I am so sorry to read of your heartbreak. I can sense the awesome love you and your husband share from the words you choose, and I am sure he knows on the deepest level that you are with him. I will pray for a lessening of your family's pain, and send healing energy, as well.

Blessings on you both.