heartbroken

[Scotsman]

It is strange to see how some folk grieve ... some have extreme sorrow, others anger ... it takes time for these things to heal. If, indeed, she feels this way deep in her heart - it is her loss, not yours. Just be you, heal, and move along with your life ... be the better person and you will sleep like a baby each night. My 2 pence.

[Lady_Glorianna]

The more I think about it and talk to people, the more I am inclined not to respond to her. She and that whole family are definitely out of my life. It will be 7weeks this Saturday and I have received not one call, message or sympathy card ffrom any of them. It just hurts that it seems that for those who you would think would feel the loss the most, it matters not that he is gone. 

[Scotsman]

Lass, all that matters is what is in your heart ... try not to dwell on the darkness of others, you carry the light ... the day will come for us all when we receive our final judgement - if your love & heart is pure than you have little to fear. Carry the light lass.

[Lady_Glorianna]

I am not dwelling on them. In terms of my back, I saw the pain management person on Monday. This other person will try a different kind of injection that hopefully will help and is also suggesting that I get a nerve study. Downside is that first one is tomorrow and though I am supposed to have someone with me but it is so short notice, I have nobody. My Ron is gone and I have no one. The place is about 15 min from my house so I'm hoping I will be well enough to do the short drive home.

[Lady_Glorianna]

change of plans. Injection is scheduled now for Tuesday

[Lady_Glorianna]

Well I'm back in limbo. Injection has been postponed til further notice as it could take as much as 30 days to get Dept of Labor approval. Meanwhile the cold weather is doing a number on me as I was in so much pain that I could not go to work today.

[Ferret]

You remain in my thoughts and prayers. I hope it helps.
Ferret

[Lady Amy of York]

Thinking of you dear lady.  You remain  in  my thoughts  and  prayers.

[lordwriothsley]

You are still in my thoughts and prayers M'Lady Glorianna.

[Rani Zemirah]

I am sending you healing energy, and comforting thoughts and prayers, Lady Glorianna. I hope you get things straightened out as soon as is possible, and that you find some ease and peace, as well.

[Lady_Glorianna]

Thanks for all your support

Well, yesterday I was so in pain (form my back injury) that I did not go to work. Cold weather is not helping not to mention that I did not feel like it. Today I received another dose of news. I am supposed to be working 4 hours a day. The balance of my pay is paid by dept of labor. Since I had depleted my leave due to my injury, I had been granted donated leave for covering those times I had to be absent due to taking care of Ron. Well, since he is gone, they are pulling the leave. From now on, I'm expected to suck it up (be it pain from my back, grief or both) and go to work. I went to a doctor this afternoon who reluctantly put me on an anti-depressant. So this afternnon I took my anti-nausea (since pain med makes me violently ill) and my pain pill, the AD and a laxative (pain med constipates me too). I'm starting to feel the effects of the pain med. I just hope that I can go to work tomorrow so that I can write my appeal and hope that I can find a sympathetic decision maker somewhere. I guess adding a bit of stress on top all the one I already feel is that my parents are coming into town this Friday to "help".

[Amras Elfwine]

Love yuh, lass. Still sending good vibes to your aura...

[Lady_Glorianna]

When I saw the doctor, she was reluctant to prescribe the anti-depressant because I was at a bit over 7 weeks (It will be 8 weeks this Saturday). She said they usually wait until you are at least 12 weeks out, in order to allow yourself to grieve and that she was reluctant because she was afraid that the medication would cut off the process but because I told her I was having problems "functioning" (you know, not wanting to do anything, crying all the time, not sleeping, migraines etc), she agreed. I have been on them for just 3 days and I have to say that I think I know what she was trying to say and feel the difference. I just get sad but not overwhelmed anymore and do not cry as much. I'd say I actually feel numb most of the time.  I miss Ron so very much

[Ferret]

Just wanted to let you know you are still in thoughts and prayers.
Ferret

[Lady Amy of York]

Hugs  and love  dear lady !  remember  you  always  have    friends    and  family here on the  forums.