heartbroken

[Lady_Glorianna]

It has been two months this day since Ron passed

May his spirit be soaring
Here is to you, my love!

[Ferret]

You are still in my thoughts and prayers.
Ferret

[Tygrkat]

Thoughts of comfort and peace are with you, Lady Glorianna.

[DonaCatalina]

I'm wishing strength and healing for you always.

[Rani Zemirah]

My heart feels the tug of longing from your own, and my wish for you is that soon the joy you received every day of your life with Ron will begin to outweigh your grief at his loss, though I know you will feel both every day. May your memories bring you joy...

[Lady Amy of York]

Hugs  and love  and  prayers  of  comfort being sent  your  way.

[Lady_Glorianna]

Well, last Monday I had to go and tell the motor vehicle administration that my Ron had passed so that they would give me a copy of the title to his motorcycle. I ended up crying at the place and for an hour afterwards. My parents are here (they arrived on dec 12th and are leaving Jan 16th) and they give me some support but I dont think they totally get it. Dec 31 is my dad's birthday and that provided a distraction but still when I had to go and get together with my family it became obvious that they don't get it. I know that they did not do it on purpose but at one point they all started talking about how hard things are and how some of them are worth more dead that alive due to life insurance. I just had to stand up and walk away. Once midnight came around I started silently crying for my Ron (I cried openly at xmas and that kind of upset my family so I opted to do it quietly this time). Friday, my brother came into town which again provided a mix of emotions. I was glad to see him as he has been very supportive but one of the reasons he came was to get Ron's motorcycle (which Ron had offered to him). We had to rent a trailer to get it from here to his house and we had to use Ron's truck for the tow. Making long trips on the truck so reminds me so much of Ron that I ended up crying both ways. I miss him terribly. To be honest I keep thinking that one more day I live is one more day closer to the day its my turn to be reunited with him:'(...

[lordwriothsley]

Lady Gloriana as always you are still in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs to you!

[RenRobin]

My heart breaks for you Lady Glorianna.  I keep you in my thoughts and prayers for comfort and healing to start.  No one expects you to be over the loss of Ron and I am sure your family understands, even though comments that spew forth do not seem to be sensitive to your loss.  It is called foot and mouth disease.  And even after we discover our parents are humans too, they too can be oblivious.

I strongly encourage you to contact the chaplain of the hospice that took care of Ron for some guidence or counseling.  There is bound to be a support group that they can refer you to, so that you can talk with people that have been what you are going thru, someone that can understand...let you know what it is that has helped them thru.

(((HUGS)))

[Lady Renee Buchanan]

When my mother died, I joined a grief group that met for 8 or 10 weeks and was sponsored by Hospice.  Even though my mom wasn't in Hospice, it is open to everyone.  I was skeptical and wasn't really comfortable with the idea of getting together with strangers, but it really and truly helped.  I highly recommend it.

Another group, which is non-denominational, but has a spiritual/religious bent, is Walking the Mourner's Path.  A friend of mine participated in it after her mother died, and she said it was the best thing that she could have done.

The important thing is to find a group.  Even though the members of the group I was in were very, very different, the common thread was that we had all lost someone we loved.  When a loved one dies, you feel like you are the only one on earth who is going through this and nobody else understands, then you meet with the group and find other people who are going through the same things you are and have the same feelings.

Usually the groups recommend that you join between 8 to 12 weeks after your loss.  However, my father died in 1986, and my mother went to a group in 1997, eleven years later, when she felt she wanted to.  I waited about 9 weeks, because that's when the next group formed.

Even if you don't think you're a "group person," you really owe it to yourself to find a grief support group, it really does help.

[Lady Kathleen of Olmsted]

May you continue to find strength with others who have gone through similar trials in their lives as you have experienced, Lady Glorianna. You're not alone. Trust in Him will lead you to brighter days.

Everyone in this fine community of rennies are daily in my thoughts and prayers.

[Lady_Glorianna]

I know this is especially hard to read:

To be honest I keep thinking that one more day I live is one more day closer to the day its my turn to be reunited with him:'(...

I guess I should clarify that what I meant was that no matter when my time is be it tomorrow or in twenty years, I am closer to it today than I was yesterday. A counselor from hospice has been coming to see me every week or every other week. I am on various online support groups and a new group from hospice will be starting the end of this month to which I plan to go as well as a hospice memorial service on the 18th (which will be 3 mo to the day). I guess at the moment I'm having a hard time because everywhere I hear the holidays are over, time to buckle down and get back to normal but my normal does not include Ron anymore and that hurts. I miss him soo much!

[Anna Iram]

I'm glad to see you have counselors and group to get you through this tough place.

Spring will be here soon Glorianna. I don't mean to seem unfeeling here. Please don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say, but I've seen people close to me allow their lives to slip away as after a heartbreak they never left that place of winter and sorrow. I don't want to see that happen to you. Sometime you have to just pull yourself up by the scruff of your neck and stare down sadness. Refuse to let it in. You still have a beautiful song to sing here. With or without Ron at your side you still have beautiful things to add to our world. Don't ever forget that.

[RenRobin]

I'm glad to see you have counselors and group to get you through this tough place.

Spring will be here soon Glorianna. I don't mean to seem unfeeling here. Please don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say, but I've seen people close to me allow their lives to slip away as after a heartbreak they never left that place of winter and sorrow. I don't want to see that happen to you. Sometime you have to just pull yourself up by the scruff of your neck and stare down sadness. Refuse to let it in. You still have a beautiful song to sing here. With or without Ron at your side you still have beautiful things to add to our world. Don't ever forget that.

So very well put Anna....and so very true Glorianna.

[Dallan]

Your strength inspires me My Lady. Continue to hold it close.