Please Send Me Some Positive Thoughts, I Can't Take Any More This Year.

[BEYONDTHEMISTS]

I probably know some of you, most of you I don't.  I have had the worst year so far. Right after GLMF pirate weekend last year, I caught bronchitis which developed into pneumonia and I was sick from the end of July til October.  In January I again caught pneumonia because apparently it never really went away.  I have been having problems with my blood pressure since last summer, and put on 70 lbs for no good reason (the doctors are still trying to decide why, more testing needed)  then, in February I lost my job (still can't find another one, still looking) On April 28th I got the worst call of my life.  I awoke in the morning to a voicemail from my brother.  My mom died of a massive seizure/stroke unexpectedly, she was only 58 yrs old.  I had been reeling from that blow since then, and then just when I started to feel better after her funeral, I was diagnosed with stage 2 hypertension/high blood pressure.  I had to miss GLMF this year.  The doctors put me on medicine for it, but it had done no good.  I went back to the doctor's last Thursday 8/6/09 and saw the heart specialist, because I've been having chest pain and my bp was 182/115, and my blood lipids were abnormal.  The heart specialist has since informed me that I have coronary artery disease (hereditary) and fibromuscular dysplasia of the arteries that lead to my brain (which explains all the severe headaches and neck pain I've had for the past few years)  I am now on 8 different medications that total $513 for a month!  He has also informed me that I may need surgery on the arteries of my heart and the ones leading to my brain.  I am so scared. I'm only 36 years old, and I am scared I'm going to die. If all of that wasn't enough, at 5pm today I open up the local paper to see that my good friend Scott A. "Hoss" Griffith had passed away at age 49 while at the Pittsburgh Festival.  My nerves cannot take another blow.  I am seriously depressed.  I went to his viewing tonight.  I don't want to remember him that way.  I regret not calling him last week like I was going to, now he's gone.  I just need some positive healing thoughts, and I don't really have anyone to turn to.  So, if you could find it in your hearts to send me some, I really could used them.  thanks.

Alicia

[lady M]

Sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. She was young. Do not carry fear and regret in your heart it could affect your health even more. Do what the doctors tell you.  We want you to get better. Sending you positive healing thoughts.
You are in heart and prayers.

Always remember you have us to turn to. When you need to talk, we're here to talk. We're family.

Lots of gentle hugs

[Tygrkat]

Sending thoughts of healing, strength and peace...may you receive all you need and more

*hugs*

[lordwriothsley]

Sweetie don't ever feel like you have no one to turn to because really and truly you do. You have all of us on here who are here for you when you need us whether it be to talk, or if you just need a listening ear we are here for you cause just like was said before we are all family.

Hugs, love, and good thoughts are being sent your way lass.

[Lady Amy of York]

Alica,
sweetheart, i can relate  somewhat  to  what  you are  going thru.  I  have  been dealing with my own health crisis  for  the  last  five years, and  along  the  way have had  to deal  with  other family  crisises    with  family  and  realtives.
(  so  sorry  to hear  about  your  mom  . ).
    Anyway, i guess  what i am getting at, is  that i  would have  never have  made  it  this  far  if  it had not  been  for  prayer,  the  love  and  support  of  my  family,  and  the  love   and  support  of  all  my   ren  friends   and  family  here  on the  forum. Life is not  always easy, but  with  prayer  and  friends  we  can get  thru  the  worst of  times.

   If  you  feel  you ever  need  to talk,  know  that we are here  for  you. 

Hugs  and  prayers  go  out  to  you.  .

[RenRobin]

Alicia,
I will put you on my prayer list for comfort for your hurting soul, and strenght to get thru it all.  Stress will do really bad thing to you, so do please try to meditate and relax and trust that things will get better.  We are here for you. 

RenRobin