I admit it... I'm scared

[Rani Zemirah]

Thank you all so much for being such good friends! I'm not really feeling so well right now, but I'll post more later, because I want to tell you individually how wonderful you all are... but right now I may need to go yurk...

So... later...

[lordwriothsley]

Rani just know that we are still here for you when you need us sweetheart.

[Lishy]

Rani, Im not one to post personal feelings on here much- you know why.  But know that I love you, Im pulling for you- and there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with crying, feeling sorry for yourself, being angry, and ranting and raving at God.  One of the hardest things I had to learn (and am still learning, daily!) is that human emotions are very real, and often, very neccessary things.  They are given to us to cope with difficult situations- and to feel what we feel is healthy as it helps us process trauma and well. . . life in general.

You ARE brave.  You arent hiding in a corner and pretending this isnt real.  You are facing head on with your head held high, and even more remarkably, a sense of humor!  Not only that, but you arent wallowing in it or using it as a crutch- you even hand out compassion and kind words to those around you in their moments of weakness.  You are doing wonderfully babe, and even when you have those moments where the negative rushes in, you aren't folding up and saying "I quit."

Youre gonna be alright girl.  Just hang in there best you can, and when you feel your grip slipping, you let us knw.  We'll hold ya up from below.

[Rani Zemirah]

I have the bestest friends in the whole entire Universe!!! You are all so kind and supportive, it almost makes me cry, but with joy! I'm feeling a bit better today, but this weekend was definitely more... intense... than ever before, and it's going to be getting worse with every shot, I guess. Still, you all help so much, and I am grateful for each and every one of you! Bless you...

Lord W, thank you so much for your humor, and your participation in all the silliness around here! You definitely deserve a title, and I think I've found the perfect one for you... Do you think you would enjoy the duties of Master of the Flame, in charge of keeping the sacred fire alight??? I have to say, it may not be easy, since I don't condone the cutting of trees to burn, and only use down and dead wood for my fires, since the forest is where we hold our revels, and we rely on the good will and grace of the trees. What say you, my Lord??? Shall I add you to the roster?

Tygrkat, I don't know what I would do without your kindness and support! You make it easier for me to laugh, even while I'm crying, and I will always be truly thankful for you! I can't wait to watch you with the torches, either!!!

Capt. Amy, thank you for understanding what I'm going through, and for relating some of your own story. It helps to be reminded that I'm not the only one who has suffered, and I certainly don't have it as rough as some. It helps me to put things in perspective, sometimes. I do have a journal, and I use it occasionally, but it seems to me that this thread helps me at least as much as it does, and all of you are far more fun that pages that don't do anything more than absorb ink. Thank you so much for all your kind words of encouragement, and for keeping those dancers on their toes!!!

Fairyfly, it means so much to me that you find the grace to post here for me even while you're own family is having such a difficult time, and it's a measure of your kind heart that you do! Thank you so much for the offer of hair holding, and next time I need it I'll just pretend you're here with me!  LOL  Thanks for taking Lishy into the fold, too... I think she's been wanting a little extra practice with that flogger of hers!

Which brings me to my darling Lishy... you are so good for me, my dear, and so very much fun, as well!!! I thank you for being there every day whenever I need to talk, and for making me smile so often. You give me so much loyalty and honest friendship, and that is rare in the world as it is. Thank you also for helping me to remember that I'm not alone in this, and there are people who care about me, even though we may never have even met in person...

And now I'm weeping in earnest, but for different reasons than last time! Thank you all so much for being who and what you are. I love you all so much, and appreciate you to no end!!!

And now... Lord W... would you see to your new duties? I believe the fire may need tending!!! Oh, and you may now drink as you like, but you still must to dance on occasion, since all men are required to entertain here, even those who bear titles!!! And remember, the clothing is not optional...

[lordwriothsley]

Rani I accept the title of Keeper of the fire so go ahead and add me to your roster sweetheart.And by the way thanks for allowing me to drink now.............Also be carefull what you wish baby girl because when I get hold of that fire.....well lets just say that you ain't seen nothing yet where gutter minds are concerned.

[Rani Zemirah]

I have updated the Roster of Titles to this point, Lord W! Welcome to the fold...

But you must take care with your title... it is Master of the Flame, and I expect to see it appear on your profile forthwith, understood? And that goes for the rest of you... if you will take my titles you must display them!!!

So say I, Rani, Fire Goddess...

[Lady Amy of York]

i would add  my title, but unfortunately  they  don't give  you  much  room in  your   profile.my  title   won't  fit.  !   I'm  working on  it  though !

[Rani Zemirah]

I know, I had to remove some things from mine to put Fire Goddess on there... but I figured it was an even trade... LOL

[Fairyfly]

*HUGTACKLE*!!! I'm back! Did ya miss me? Tee hee

Zemirah darling, even though we haven't met...yet... you have become part of my family! And all of my family are dear to me! And now I have a back yard where I can practice my whip and flogger techniques! *rotten evil grin* Speaking of which, I happily found the box that contained them and unpacked them today!

Lord W, you my friend are not the only one who's mind has a happy home in the gutter! You are truly among friends here. Lol

*HUGS*

[lordwriothsley]

Lord W, you my friend are not the only one who's mind has a happy home in the gutter! You are truly among friends here. Lol
(Quote from FairyFly)

FairyFly that's the fun part about this group is the fact that I have other friends to share my gutter mind with .And Rani my lovely Fire Goddess I will work on having my profile updated with my new title.

[Taffy Saltwater]

Hi, hon - just wanted to let you know you remain in my thoughts - rest up & take in some calories so you have something "in the bank" for the weekend.  Take care!

[Rani Zemirah]

Thanks, Taffy. It's been a bit rough the last couple of days to even eat anything because of another failed attempt at anti-depressants that really tore up my stomach, but I think I'm starting to feel a bit better, and will probably be able to eat tomorrow. Thank goodness I don't have to cook anything this year. I get to play the chemo card and get out of all the chores... LOL  I'll make sure to bring home lots of yummy leftovers also, even though nothing tastes very yummy these days...

Still not a very good day... might go lay down again for a while.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!!! I love you all!

[Fairyfly]

Rest up hun. Have a great day tomorrow! I hope something tastes at least a little like yummy food! Love ya too! *HUGS*

[lordwriothsley]

Happy Thanksgiving to you as well sweetheart.Like everyone else has said rest up,take care of yourself,and hopefully something will taste at least a little good like a traditional Thanksgiving dinner should.You always have been and will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers sweetie.

[Tygrkat]

Hoping your feeling rested and happy...and that you were able to enjoy some of the good stuff yesterday, you continue to be in my thoughts