I admit it... I'm scared

[lordwriothsley]

Rani you know whenever I see someone post a thread on here in need of a prayer or two or just needing to vent some frustration or anger my heart always goes out to them and I usually try my best to offer some words of encouragement to try and help lift their spirits a little bit and make them feel better,but of all the ones that I have ever read on here you and FairyFly have stood out to me the most.For some reason my heart has just been aching in pain for the two of you and it seems that I just can't get the two of you and your situations off my mind.

Rani when I first read about your troubles it really hit me hard and took a lot for me not to shed a tear for you because I know that going through something like that is not only physically hard but mentally hard as well.Every night when I would go to bed after saying my nightly prayers I would always say an extra prayer for you and ask God to to watch over you and comfort you and help you get through this right away so that you could go back to being happy and healthy again and not have to worry about suffering the treatments have to face every weekend.Well I must admit the way you have handled this whole situation has truly amazed me and I thank God every day that he has brought to where you are right now even with the continued treatments and chemo you are facing right now.Sweetie you are truly an inspiration to not just me but everyone on here as well and for that I just want to say from the bottom of my heart thank you and I love you my friend.

FairyFly my heart especially went out to you after finding out that your little girl was diagnosed with diabetes at such her young age.Children her age especially should not have to deal with such a serious health issue such as that (diabetes) much less any health problems at all.In a way I guess you could say that I was angry because I would often find myself saying "It's just not fair that a little girl this young should have to suffer like this" but you know I believe that the power of prayer works miracles beyond what any doctor,counselor,or pediatricion (pardon my spelling) in the world could tell you in this case.Then there were your own troubles that you were having to deal with pertaining to (as you like to put it  ) your kidlet that would leave me asking myself "Why should have she to suffer to"? but then it dawned on me that Phoeny is your kid and as a mother you would give anything in the world just to see that your kid is safe and happy.I know I am not a parent (yet) but I did have a kid of my own right now my heart would break for them as your breaks for your daughter and the health problems she is having to face right now.

Sweetie just like Rani you have been a huge inspiration to not just me be everyone else on here as well and likewise from the bottom of my heart I would also like to say thank you,god bless you,and I love you to my friend.Always know that my love also goes out to Phoeny as well.Likewise that same love goes out to your daughter as well Rani.May you all have a safe,happy,wonderous,and joyful holiday season and happy and healthy new year.I predict that great things will happen for you all in 2009.Y'all can count on that.May God bless and be with you all.

[Rani Zemirah]

You are such a sweet guy, Lord W, and you have no idea how much your posts brighten my day and lift my spirits! I thank you for all of your posts here, especially when my mood is low and I'm feeling lousy! I can never thank you enough for your thoughts, prayers and words of encouragement, support, and kindness... you lift me up, my friend, and that is something special! I can never thank you enough!

[Peddlin]

Good morning, Rani, Dear -

Take a deep breath, think of all the people who love you, and be thankful for another day. That is the way I try to start every morning.

Being a mother (even though my sons are "supposed" to be grown), I have something to say, and of course, you don't have to listen, but I will ask you to think about it. I know how sick, and miserable, and afraid you have to be, but I'm sure you know a little seven year old girl, who is very afraid, too. I have a suggestion. Sit her down, and explain to her that you are going through a battle with some of the cells in your body, and then tell her that you need her help to fight them. Explain to her that you know that she gets grumpy, when she doesn't feel well, and let her know that you have the same problem. Tell her that sometimes, when the bad stuff makes you feel bad, you may snap at her, when she actually hasn't done anything wrong. Explain that when people feel bad, it spreads to the ones around them. You might want to point out to her that she could be a big help to you, and that when you are feeling bad, there are things she could do to make you feel better. You could tell her that, when you snap for no reason, she could say, "Mommy, I know you don't feel good, but it is okay. I know you still love me, and I want you to feel better." Then tell her that a kiss and a hug always make you feel better. It is just an idea, but I hope that it might help both of you. I know that it still works with my sons. A kiss and a hug from them, always makes me feel better. If you can include her in some of your feelings, and make her feel like a part of your current life, she may not be so scared.

Just a thought.

Always,

P-

[Deborah]

Rani, I apologize...I've been so wrapped up in my own *garbage* that I missed the beginning of this post.

At our home, we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Keep up the good fight, we all know you can beat this!

*Hugs*

[Rani Zemirah]

Thank you so much, Peddlin, for those wonderful suggestions! They sound like a wonderful way to help us both deal in a more loving, understanding way, and I will be using that from now on... I'm sure it will help so much!!!

I hope your Holidays are turning out to be wonderful!!! Thank you so much for your thoughtful kindness!


Thank you, Deborah, for your kind thoughts and prayers, and don't ever worry about the timing of them! I The work whenever they are sent!!! I'll send a few your way to help with that "garbage", and we'll all have a wonderful Holiday Season!!!!

Thanks!

[Rani Zemirah]

This has been a really difficult week for me, with trying to keep up with family obligations and wondering why a particular person hasn't been in touch, all while dealing with treatment has left me with very low energy, and worsening side effects this time, also. I seem to get stressed and anxious more easily right now, and I just want all this to be over! March 27 will be my last treatment, and I can't wait...

Meanwhile, since I don't really have much of a social life right now... I've been reading El Lobo del Mar, by the wonderfully talented team of Welsh Wench and Mad Jack Wolfe, from the beginning, and it's been very entertaining! I'm about half way through the story written so far, and I must say I would recommend it to anyone interested in the Pirate Adventure genre, and it has enough steamy scenes to appeal to the bodice ripper set, also!!! I'm just worried that when I get to the end of what's been written so far I'm going to have trouble waiting for the new installments to come out, so perhaps I'd better slow down soon... Oh yeah, right, like that will happen...    LOL

So... guess I'll try and read for a bit today, although it's not so easy on Saturdays to sit here. Hopefully some of you will decide to join me...

[lordwriothsley]

Rani as always I will come and join you in this adventurous story you are reading right now as it seems to be very appealing to you and something you are enjoying doing as well.I'm so sorry to hear about your difficult week however.This is truly the last thing you need right now with all that is going on with you especially with the treatments still in effect.You know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers so I will be praying that things get better for you and that the upcoming week will be a much better one for you as well.

Hugs to you sweetie!

[Rani Zemirah]

It's a good storyline, and a rousing adventure! My only complaint is that I have to wait for new installments!!!

(perhaps I should learn to read slower)   LOL

[lordwriothsley]

It's a good storyline, and a rousing adventure! My only complaint is that I have to wait for new installments!!!

(perhaps I should learn to read slower)   LOL

But that's the good part about having to wait for the next installments of a story.It's like a good movie trilogy where they leave you hanging in the midst of the story so they can set it all up for the big surprise ending just like what happened in "Lord of the Rings" which turned out to be a very good trilogy and one of my personal favorites as well.

[Rani Zemirah]

No... it was hell waiting for the last movie to come out, although I was lucky in being able to read all of the books at one time! I don't like waiting, not even for something I'll enjoy...

I want it all, and I want it NOW!!!   

[lordwriothsley]

No... it was hell waiting for the last movie to come out, although I was lucky in being able to read all of the books at one time! I don't like waiting, not even for something I'll enjoy...

I want it all, and I want it NOW!!!   

Listen up Welsh Wench and Mad Jack Wolfe the fire goddess has spoken.

[Rani Zemirah]

Uhhh... no, wait... that's a totally different thread now, remember??? It's just 'lil ole' me here, now!!!  LOL

(pay no attention to the man behind the curtain!!!)

(What are you tryin' ta' do, Lord W... don't tick them off or I may never find out what happens with the Kings!!! Not to mention how badly Mad Jack gets twisted in knots by a little girl!!!

ROFL!!!

[lordwriothsley]

Sorry Rani,I guess my sense of humor is not funny sometimes.And no I do not want to get you in trouble with the writers of this awesome story you are reading right now.

[Rani Zemirah]

Oh please... if you couldn't tell that I was laughing while I was writing, then maybe you could get a visual clue... like that whole "ROFL" thing I'm so fond of...      

WW and Mad Jack are great, and they'll be thrilled that we're discussing El Lobo del Mar, you'll see!!! I think it's a really fun read, and because I'm too impatient to sit around and wait for new installments... I've already started reading Dead Mans Tavern I, and will move on to DMTII when I'm done! I like these characters, and I want to see how they develop in different story lines! There is also a fairly large body of other work by these authors, and others here, in both the Port of Call and the Stories boards, so I would suggest that anyone who has been looking for an adventure lately can't go wrong reading these titles!

Oh, and as far as a sense of humor is concerned... maybe I should work on my comedic timing a bit, before I go tryin' to be funny anymore! 

[Fairyfly]

*HUG* Sorry you've not been having such a good time of things lately hun. Just remember we are still here for you. We might get delayed in responding, but you are NEVER out of our thoughts and our hearts!
We just loves ya too much chicky!

*HUGS*!!!!